Saturday, November 30, 2013

Nathan`s Diary


I put my black fitted on and threw the hood from my baggy black sweater over my head and zipped up the sweater and stuffed my Iphone and welt in the pockets .

Well after my performances ! I went on tour earlier and so am I wrapping it up here in New York !

I am in Madison Squares Garden !

Me and my crew said a little prayer like we always do before every performances.

I am hooked up to my mic pack and homey g turn it on for me and we went under stage , rapped and sang and dance .
We got back to Detroit , headed up to Detroit City where the last performance of Survivor Brain Washed Tour !

As always we prayed ! I used to be the type of kid that would always think the sky was falling . Why am I so differently wired am I a martian? What kind of twisted experiment am I involved in ? Cause I don`t belong in this world!
Then I rapped
Brain Washed !

Why I am so brain washed ?!

I am so brain washed , mama made me brain washed so brain washed I let myself get brain washed by my mom !

I crowd surfed which by the way I love to do to in every concerts I

Then the last two
raps are deep !

this twisted twisted war I am in between myself is too weird and twisted why someone tell me why I am in this twisted war twisted war ! Twisted twisted war !

Yeah am I tough but I cry homies cry we are humans and have feeling I see the tear drops hitting the ground . The world can be harsh and cord but yeah I do cry and I fake smile !
I see all of my fans crying and rapping along !

Yes I shed a few tears real boys cry ! Uncle Em and my crew hugged me

Me and my crew sighed autographs and took some more pictures with our loving fans !

My best friends through out the tour were by my side like always .

Monday, November 18, 2013

Nathan`s Diary

I put the clothes that I fold earlier in my bookbag and I also made sure my notebooks were inside and pens too ! Yup there are in there . I slipped my black and red beats over my head and letting them neatly rest on my shoulders and I stuffed the changer of my headphones and my Iphone .

 I put on the black fitted I borrowed from my brother Em yup dad`s friend and my big brother have the same name awesome I know right! 

 I pulled the hood of the sweater I wearing over my head and I has my sunglasses on ! 

 Alright I looked at myself in the mirror and said to myself this is it I am going on a trip and no one can`t stop me from going .

I left the room and went downstairs and left Em a note with a smiley face


:) saying going out peace out homie yo !

from: shottie

I left it on the light brown desk in his home office and left .


I am not turning back I am going to New York City !

I  went to Aaron`s house to pick up Jordan he`s at Aaron`s house playing with Diamond !

I hooked the lash`s to his collar and headed to the airport !

And I said to Aaron the pilot who flys the many private planes dad and me have !

I left a voicemail to Em .

We landed in New York !

And I got a call back from Em saying to wait for him that`s he`s coming to get me and take me and Jordan back to Detroit !

But why ?! I asked him and he said because I am taking care of you !

I hung up and put my Iphone in my pocket and thanked Aaron for fling me and JOrdan over here .

I did a little bit of shopping and picked up dinner for me and Jordan stake and fries ! Oh and of course water for Jordan I packed his other water bowl it`s blue with diamonds he loves bling bling just like me !


Oh boy Em`s here we stayed In New York for the night I told him I wanted to stay because it`s vacation for me as fro my dad and brothers and uncle are on a cruise !

Em and me sayed for a couple of days and headed back !


I know you miss them you know they will be back you know !
 and you have your best friends Jordan and Tony !

Oh yeah ok !


I hugged him !

I wrote a poem about my dog (Jordan)

Jordan is fluffy and his fur keeps me warm when I lay my head on him

and does many tricks and he looks like a white fluffy pillow when he needs a hair cut !

 He loves it when I put clothes on him when his hair is short !

weeks and weeks passed  by !

 dad and the gang returned !

I brushed my teeth and said my goodnight prayers with dad , said waited for my brother Em and his wife Kim  they were saying they prayers so I went to Michael`s room and he was done praying so I hugged him and said goodnight and ran back to where Kim and Em are staying said goodnight to them ! They are spending the night !

I went back to dad`s room and climbed into bed and said goodnight to him and he said goodnight baby boy !

The last thing I saw before falling asleep was dad !




Monday, September 16, 2013

Nathan's Diary

Dad is a little bit sleepy so he just sat on the couch and he looks like he is about to dose off ! He said  its a good time to take a nap isn't it shorty ? ! I smiled at him and dad was just staring at me !  Next thing I know dad was knocked out I just looked at uncle M I said well since dad is napping let's go to the mall and he said I could use any of his credit cards for anything I wanted ! OK ! Know u ?! Uncle M loves to say u know just like dad does . I went over to the other side of the living room to get dad's wallet and of course his sweater which is next to him I covered him up with the blanket that's on the couch and took his hat and black air Jordans off . I put them on since I can borrow anything from him dad said ! Me and uncle M got to the mall we went to sneakers heaven I looked around and pointed to the sneakers that I wanted to Mr. Shawn so he can get them in my size ! I turned around to face uncle M and only to find dad next to him I said daddy you came ! I hugged him yay dadi ! 
Mr. Shawn  came back with the sneakers I wanted I paid for them with dad's golden card ! I bought a couple of shirts and shorts and jeans !

We ate pizza and Chinese and Japanese food and we also signed a couple of pictures for our fans !

I brushed my teeth and said my prayers . And I went to bed and uncle M and dad are knocked out we all actually said our prayers together !

Uh um they are on my California king sized bed aye we are family !

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Nathan's Diary

I had a great day with my family and now I m off to bed . I prayed and brushed my
teeth and climbed into bed my dad came in and tucked me in and said goodnight and shut the lights off . My eyes started closing and then I felt something lick my hand it is Jordan I let him climb in my bed every night so he was telling me that he was there by licking my hand . He jumped on the bed and Jordan is asleep, I am wide awake, so I went to the other side of my room , turned on the desk lamp suddenly new rap lyrics started flooding my mind so I grabbed one of my lyrics notebook , before I knew it it was fillled with new lyrics and I grabbed my older lyrics notebook from way back when I started my career, wow I am successful, man I am proud of myself, I wrote so my rap songs , created movies with that I started feeling sleepy so I shut off the light , headed to bed , fallen asleep.


Friday, April 19, 2013

NATHAN`S DAIRY

THE CLOUDS ARE BLACK IN THE SKY . IT STARTED THUNDERING VERY BADLY AND LIGHTING TOO ! RIGHT AWAY I GATHERED MY STUFF AND PUT THEM IN A BASKET THAT WAS ON THE FLOOR AND I CALLED AFTER MY WHITE STANDARD POODLE JORDAN TO COME AND HE CAME AND WE BOTH WENT TO GO IN THE HOUSE MOM AND DAD WHERE THERE WAITING FOR ME AND JORDAN TO GET IN THE HOUSE AS DAD WAS CLOSING THE DOOR IT STARTED POURING AND DAD LOCKED THE DOOR AND PULLED THE BRIGHT RED DRAPES TOGETHER AND ME AND ME AND JORDAN THE REST OF THE FAMILY ALL SAT TOGETHER ON THE SOFA AND THE LIGHTS WENT AWAY SO I CUDDLE UP WITH JORDAN BECAUSE I WAS KINDA IF SCARED IF THE CRAZY THUNDERSTORM THAT WAS GOING ON BUT THEN AGAIN I DON`T NEED TO ME SCARED BECAUSE I HAVE GOD WITH AND MY FAMILY TOO ! SO I FORGOT ABOUT WHAT WAS GOING ON OUT OUT . AND MOM GIVE ME JORDAN`S RED HAIRBRUSH SO I CAN BRUSH HIS HAIR AND HIS RED BANDANNA SO I CAN PUT IT ON HIM . HE SAT CALMLY BUT A LITTLE SHAKY WHILING I WAS BRUSHING HIS VERY SOFT FUR AND THEN I SAT THE HAIR BRUSH DOWN AND TIED THE BANDANNA ON HIS HEAD . AND THAT MADE HIM SLEEPY SO HE LIED DOWN ON THE FLOOR AND CLOSED HIS EYES AND WENT TO SLEEP AND SO I TOO LIED ON THE FLOOR NEXT TO JORDAN WENT TO SLEEP TOO . THE WEATHER HERE IN RUSSIA CAN GET A LITTLE BIT CRAZY !
LIL NATE SHOTTI

Saturday, April 13, 2013

NATHAN`S DAIRY

I M HAVING SO MUCH FUN ! I GOT TO GO TO MANY INTERVIEWS WITH I.T IS SO MUCH FUN WHEN THEY ASK MANY QUESTIONS TO HIM AND THEY WHEN INTERVIEW ME TOO  ! I WENT BACK TO RUSSIA I LOVE GOING THERE I LOVE SEEING ALL THE DIFFERENT PLACES THERE AND THE FOOD IS GREAT AND I GIT TO LEARN EVEN MO ABOUT MY FAMILY YO ! AND MY GANGSTAS AND HOMIES ARE TEACHING ME ABOUT ALL DA DIFFERENT PARTS AND FOODS IN RUSSIA ! I LOVE RUSSIA AND I LOVE PLAYING WITH THE RUSSIAN DOLLS MY FAMILY HAS FROM MANY MANY YEARS ! MY MOMMA AND DADDY SAYS I FIT PERFECTLY IN RUSSIA BECAUSE OF MY SHORT YELLOW BLONDE AND BABY BLUE/ HAZEL EYES I GOT MY LOOKS FROM DAD`S AND MOM`S SIDE OF THE FAMILY ! LIFE IS SO GOOD HOMEY I M SO HAPPY I GIT TO LIVE ANOTHER DAY ! :) LIL NATE SHOTTI 

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Nathan's Diary

My Homeys and gangstas means so much .  They like my family its always fun to hang out with them . They are always there 4 me when I them the most  . Lil Nate Shotti

Sunday, March 3, 2013

Nathan`s Diary

love my family with my hold heart.
My love is Joy to love my family
Family is sad and happy and love.
Family is fun and painful and pretty.
My family is like all families we have
love and we have happiness and tears
I love my hold family
My family is like angels who fly in sky
I am grateful that I have family that loves
me.
My family are kind and nice and fun to be
around
My family is painful like all familys are and
heart breaking and Evil sometimes
My family is heart breaking and deadly like
everyone else
Hey I can't stop loving my family not matter what
it coats in the family.
Way my family is just makes me want have family
with someone be as good as they are.
But God know I love my family
and our love is great to have in life
and even know they leave he world they still
a live in my hearts. LIL NATE SHOTTI

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Poem

Life is rough sometimes but keep on going and hold your head up head . oh life why are u so harsh most of the time  keep the people who support u n keep the ones who don't outta of your life .

Friday, February 15, 2013

Nathan`s Diary


I m so happy I m going to Russia and then to the Dominican R.E.P and Puerto Rico and ireland to visit to learn about where my family came from . And study the arts and I m going to school in these places where I m going and it awesome and my whole family is coming with me <3 and my two baushkas and two grandpas are gonna teach me how to properly dance the Russian dance . I love my background and I m gona learn more about my background and where each of my family member from the 1445 to now how awesome I m so happy.
Lil Nate shotti

Friday, February 8, 2013

Nathan`s Diary

like toy soldiers 

step by step heart to heart 

we all fall down 

bit by bit they tore us apart 

we never win but

the battle wages 4 toy soldiers

I m supposed 2 the soldier who never blows his composure

even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders

I ain`t supposed 2 show it 2 my crew I m supposed 2 set an example

Lil Nate Shotti

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Nathan`s Diary

My big brothers Addison and Jordan are always there for me . They bring the best outta of me . we have a strong bond that is thicker then meat . My big brothers they me advice about any thing life throws at me . They hug me when I m scared and stay by my side all the time . And they answer all my questions I ask them . They are always willing to offer a helping for people . They show me how smart and handsome I m . My big brothers one is 25 and the other 27 . I thank my mama and daddy rising such great men I wanna be like my big brothers when I grow up . They will always be there for me til the end my brothers are my best homies . They are funny and loving and caring . They hasve my back and I have theirs I might only be 14 years old but I understand when something is up with them . When I feel like fighting with my homies and ganstas and best friends they stop me before I start to fight and they tell me I should not fight them but to love them as my own blood . I m glad God made them my brothers ! They know when I sometimes get upset but they make happy . They chase away the bad dreams and bring the happy ones I love my big brothers to death . Lil Nate Shotti

Monday, February 4, 2013

Nathan`s Diary



A person I have always looked up too
He is one of my best homies
He can make conversation with anyone
He has stories about everything
He has taught me more than i can even remember
I hope someday i can be half the man he is
I can talk to him about anything
My uncle is like a second father to me my uncle reminds me of my daddy he is my role model
he is honest and outgoing he is sweet as pie he is just barely 25 years old but is so wise the stories he tells are just so wonderful he is so much fun to be around he is funny I can talk to him about anything just like I can with my dad he keeps me safe he is so smart I love you my sweet dear uncle I m proud to be your nephew and I m glad you are my uncle .
Lil Nate Shotti

Sunday, February 3, 2013

Nathan`s Diary ( text message)


Nate : Hey
T.I : wad up Shotti
Nate: How are you doing ?
T.I : good how about you ?
Nate: I m good
T.I : that is good what you up to ?
Nate: nothing just relaxing listing to rap .
T.I : awsome who you lising to ?
Nate: all she wrote
T.I: lol u are listing to me while texting me!
Nate : yeah lol that is funny .
T.I : yup so are you happy ?
Nate yeah so happy
T.I: that is awsome !
Nate: thanks for helping me :) yo !
T.I : yo welcome if u need to talk some more I m here 4 you homie !
Nate: yeah I know

Saturday, February 2, 2013

Nathan`s Diary

Smile for no reason . Live life to the fullest go to places that you that u wanna go .Love your life . Hang out withe the homies cause you never know when you will lose them . Life is precious love is just a word you bring definition . Hold on to the moment . Make your dreams come true . Just be you , love yourself . Don`t beat yourself up just because you made a mistake cause that mistake yo will turn in to something great . Don`t harm yourself talk to someone . Hold your head up high . I know I changed the way I handle my feelings I just wrote to my favorite rapper that help , I m happy and also I talked to my gangstas and homies that helped me alot . I m so grateful to have my boys . Life is worthy don`t harm don`t hind your feelings talk to someone. Like I did !
walk with yo head held up high .

Lil Nate Shotti

Friday, February 1, 2013

Nathan`s Dairy

I m so happy . I smile for no reason . I just go and talk to someone . I live a healthy harmless free life . 
I just lay down and close my eyes when bad feelings comes and think happy thoughts . M y gangstas and homies see the change in me they don`t see the sad boy they used to see . And they now see a very happy boy . I m so happy I just shake the bad thoughts and go on with life because life is worth to live . Thanks to T.I`s help I love my life . I don`t cry no more . 

Lil Nate Shotti

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Nathan`s Dairy (poem)



My boys have my back and I have theirs .

Their are my brothers my homies and gangstas .

They don`t need to ask to borrow my stuff they can take them . 
They do. They give me a shoulder to cry on and a bucket to catch every tear and a tissue to wipe my eyes . They put their lives at risk to save me . 
They take care of me when I m sick . They guide me through life . They help me get through
the ups and downs . They stay up all night talking to me when they notice something wrong with me . They don`t gotta ask to get some food from the cupboard cause my house is theirs . They mend my heart when it is broke when something bad happens . We are thick and tine .

They know all of my secrets even if I don`t tell them . They don`t ask questions they just know . When I m cold they give me one of their sweaters . My boys lift my spirit up they make me laugh .When I skin my knees they wipe the blood away .And tell it is ok
Lil Nate Shotti

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Nathan's dairy

Sometimes I just gotta swallow my own tears . I go and hold my head up high I choke while I m fighting my tears but sometimes I just let them come out sometimes I can't control them but sometimes I do .

Lil Nate Shotti

Monday, January 28, 2013

Nathan`s Dairy






Now I can express my feelings and tell my homies how I feel without having to lash out on myself . I just keep my head held high and go on with life and I don`t got to put them through so much pain and worries . I just grab my notebook and a pen and write my feelings down and I even turn some of them in to rap or a poem . I just look up to the sky and say thank you
Jesus for being there for me and putting someone there to help me . I don`t gets to hind my feelings no more . I now understand it is okay to talk to someone ! When I feel like crying I just let the tears come out I know sometimes I just need a good cry afterwards I feel a lot better .
Lil Nate Shotti

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Nathan`s Dairy


Dear Nate
I m never busy for a fan in need . I m always here to help you in any way that I can and you can write to me anytime . You can write you feelings down in a notebook and when you feel like cutting just pick up a pen and a piece of paper and write . Please do me a favor throw that knife away it will help more if you do that . And each letter you send me I will answer here`s a quote I wrote just hold yo head up high the errors you make will turn into somethang
great . Remember I m always here to help just keep on writing to me
from T.I

Nathan`s Dairy


dear T.I I m writing you this letter to let 
you know that I need some help from you . You are 
probably busy but I know when you get some time you will so I gonna tell you 
anyway ! I cut myself and I don`t know why I started doing that and I wanna stop before it gets out of hand and I need some one who I can talk to and who understands me . I cry almost all the time I just hind behind a tear of a clown sounds silly right ? I tell my self everything will be fine just another story .

from your 1 # Lil Nate Shotti

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Nathan`s Dairy

Not another day goes by without me thinking to my self where would I be ? If i don`t asked for help . I m so glad I did I so sorry for putting my gangstas and homies through so much pain and making them worry all the time ! I m so happy that they helped me through my struggles and helped me realized that what I was putting my life in danger . I told them every thing in detailed . 

Lil Nate Shotti

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Nathan`s Dairy

Go head judge me ! Any way you are no one to judge me God is da only one who can to judge me . So take your hating self somewhere okay! This lil dude don`t roll like that . 

Lil Nate Shottie

Monday, January 21, 2013

Nathan`s Diary

People come and go out of the USA 
yeah it hurts to see the person you love and care to leave . Simply because they don`t have their papers done yet ! YO I mean I gotta help them stay here in the USA they have freedom and rights to be here . 

Lil Nate Shotti

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Nathan`s Diary

Life is so awsome . Love is a special thing could ever happen to someone why hate on love when love is good when everything in life is good . I m so thankful to have such great gangstas and homies in my life they help me get through the tough and good times that life throw at me ! Lil Nate Shotti

Friday, January 18, 2013

Joshua


here you go honey said Joshua`s mom . His little chubby face lite up he crawled fast towards the plate of food . Joshua grabbed a fist full of mac n cheese and stuffed it in his mouth .Then He dunk his head in the he had cheese all over his face and on his nose . His mom came back and oh some one needs a bath . So she gave Joshua a bath and put a clean pair of pjs and layed him down for a nap and gave him a kiss on his cheek he fell asleep.

Nathan's Diary

Life is so good I m glad to have my gangstas and homies. I have learned not to  think that cutting is a trend and that is dangerous and i could die . I thank them for helping ! I m so happy that I m in treatment and I will not do that again . Now I learned that I just can go and take to one of my gangstas or homies .

Lil Nate Shotti

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Nathan's Diary

I m greatful to have my gangstas and homies . They help  me get through
Tha  bad times . 
Lil Nate Shotti