Saturday, November 30, 2013

Nathan`s Diary


I put my black fitted on and threw the hood from my baggy black sweater over my head and zipped up the sweater and stuffed my Iphone and welt in the pockets .

Well after my performances ! I went on tour earlier and so am I wrapping it up here in New York !

I am in Madison Squares Garden !

Me and my crew said a little prayer like we always do before every performances.

I am hooked up to my mic pack and homey g turn it on for me and we went under stage , rapped and sang and dance .
We got back to Detroit , headed up to Detroit City where the last performance of Survivor Brain Washed Tour !

As always we prayed ! I used to be the type of kid that would always think the sky was falling . Why am I so differently wired am I a martian? What kind of twisted experiment am I involved in ? Cause I don`t belong in this world!
Then I rapped
Brain Washed !

Why I am so brain washed ?!

I am so brain washed , mama made me brain washed so brain washed I let myself get brain washed by my mom !

I crowd surfed which by the way I love to do to in every concerts I

Then the last two
raps are deep !

this twisted twisted war I am in between myself is too weird and twisted why someone tell me why I am in this twisted war twisted war ! Twisted twisted war !

Yeah am I tough but I cry homies cry we are humans and have feeling I see the tear drops hitting the ground . The world can be harsh and cord but yeah I do cry and I fake smile !
I see all of my fans crying and rapping along !

Yes I shed a few tears real boys cry ! Uncle Em and my crew hugged me

Me and my crew sighed autographs and took some more pictures with our loving fans !

My best friends through out the tour were by my side like always .

Monday, November 18, 2013

Nathan`s Diary

I put the clothes that I fold earlier in my bookbag and I also made sure my notebooks were inside and pens too ! Yup there are in there . I slipped my black and red beats over my head and letting them neatly rest on my shoulders and I stuffed the changer of my headphones and my Iphone .

 I put on the black fitted I borrowed from my brother Em yup dad`s friend and my big brother have the same name awesome I know right! 

 I pulled the hood of the sweater I wearing over my head and I has my sunglasses on ! 

 Alright I looked at myself in the mirror and said to myself this is it I am going on a trip and no one can`t stop me from going .

I left the room and went downstairs and left Em a note with a smiley face


:) saying going out peace out homie yo !

from: shottie

I left it on the light brown desk in his home office and left .


I am not turning back I am going to New York City !

I  went to Aaron`s house to pick up Jordan he`s at Aaron`s house playing with Diamond !

I hooked the lash`s to his collar and headed to the airport !

And I said to Aaron the pilot who flys the many private planes dad and me have !

I left a voicemail to Em .

We landed in New York !

And I got a call back from Em saying to wait for him that`s he`s coming to get me and take me and Jordan back to Detroit !

But why ?! I asked him and he said because I am taking care of you !

I hung up and put my Iphone in my pocket and thanked Aaron for fling me and JOrdan over here .

I did a little bit of shopping and picked up dinner for me and Jordan stake and fries ! Oh and of course water for Jordan I packed his other water bowl it`s blue with diamonds he loves bling bling just like me !


Oh boy Em`s here we stayed In New York for the night I told him I wanted to stay because it`s vacation for me as fro my dad and brothers and uncle are on a cruise !

Em and me sayed for a couple of days and headed back !


I know you miss them you know they will be back you know !
 and you have your best friends Jordan and Tony !

Oh yeah ok !


I hugged him !

I wrote a poem about my dog (Jordan)

Jordan is fluffy and his fur keeps me warm when I lay my head on him

and does many tricks and he looks like a white fluffy pillow when he needs a hair cut !

 He loves it when I put clothes on him when his hair is short !

weeks and weeks passed  by !

 dad and the gang returned !

I brushed my teeth and said my goodnight prayers with dad , said waited for my brother Em and his wife Kim  they were saying they prayers so I went to Michael`s room and he was done praying so I hugged him and said goodnight and ran back to where Kim and Em are staying said goodnight to them ! They are spending the night !

I went back to dad`s room and climbed into bed and said goodnight to him and he said goodnight baby boy !

The last thing I saw before falling asleep was dad !




Sunday, October 13, 2013

Nathan's Diary

Dad is my homey and I know I can tell him anything !

I am grateful to have him as my dad !

Dad says he's never gonna get married or be in a relationship after what he's been through he says it takes two to make a marriage work with trust and loyal and faithful to one another !

He says he tells me so I won't fall for someone like mom and I can learn from him !

He's awesome !

See dad is doing awesome !

I wise I had a loving mama but she's doesn't like the fact that I was born in the hood , plus she does not like me at all but I forgive her , love her no matter what cause we gotta love one another  !

I love her and I feel like it was my fault that dad's marriage crumble and ma hitting him !

Why I was born ?!

Ugh I feel the tears coming down !

why Em do even I have a purpose of being here ?!

Em : every one has a purpose and your mama has been being abusing your dad for many years and their marriage was crumble way before u were made and I am glad you are in my life ! She's doesn't know what a great person you are you know ! Stay true to yourself  , you are beautiful!

I hugged him !

He's one of dad's best friend ,he's like an uncle to me !

Well Em wiped my tears ! Then I washed my face with freezing water after talking to uncle Em about how I feel .

I now feel calm and refreshed see I am staying with him cause dad and my blood uncles and brothers went on a retreating trip on a cruise ship !

I sleep in dad's room but now I am staying with uncle Em I am kinda scared of him . He's awesome and funny
as heck !

Anyways I want to go out but I gotta tell Em and ask him for we are doing anything .

I put my iPhone in the pocket of the white sweater that I borrowed from Em !

Well I am gonna go out and have fun .
Since dad ,my brothers and uncles are gonna be out for months
And Em says that dad is refreshing his mind so he decided to go on a long cruise trip !

Nathan`s Diary

I am just chilling with dad and uncle M and Frank and Roni oh and my great uncles Jay Jay and James and grandparents Bethy and Tod .
We are at Jersey Shore yup dad asked where I wanted to go
so I said Jersey Shore so all he had to do was call our pilot Aaron to start one of our
private planes ready for us to use !
I ran through the sand and into the water laughing and taking pictures with my fans .
Then I went to the bathroom with dad and my uncles and grandpa and grandma went to the women bathroom . I changed and used the bathroom and went to wash my hands .
I went back outside to wait grandma came out first and she waited with me and the rest came out as well . we got a whole lot of tickets got on every ride well dried rides only then the hunted house .
We left and went to the Jersey Garden mall then to the Big Apple boy did I went into every shop and ate Dominican food ! And hot dogs and pretzel then pizza !
I love coming to New York and Jersey !
We got on the subway and took another to see New York !
Dad called the plaza to confirm our rooms dad and our family are good friends with Mr. Donald .
We got back to the heart of New York and checked in and me and dad went to our room and the rest of the gang went off to their before we did that we said goodnight to each other .
I brushed my teeth and took a shower and put my pjs on and said my prayers and so did dad . I said thanks for the fun and he hugged me and we both fell asleep !

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Nathan`s Diary

I went downstairs and I came across mom I said hi to her and I am very scared of what she can do next to me ! After she smacked me so I try to stay away from her ,she grabbed and pushed me to the floor and punched my nose I left the room and I text dad saying what she did to me . Mom saw dad and she went over to him and started hitting him dad looked at me and say please go to another room and call 911 ! It`s going to be alright baby boy soon we will be normal . I left and unlocked the front door , went upstairs to get my Royal blue JORDANS and went back downstairs and to the family room who told me that he`s on his way and to hang up and call 911 just like I was told to before I hung I told him to hurry up I have tears in my eyes . I wiped my tears and I sat down on the steps and put on my high tops I once came across mom she pushed me and hit me across my face causing it to sting and she said don`t s you dare to call 911 you little stupid ghetto boy . Then mom left I am torn cause dad told me to call 911 and she told me not to I felt something warm and I saw red oh no I am starting to bleed I quickly reached in the pocket of my sweater for my black bandana and tied it to my face only covering  the bottom of my nose . I covered my eyes with my sunglasses . Went to the front door I left a post it note with the saying I love you homie love shorty . I heard Mrs . Annie and Mr. Aaron coming in and Mrs. Annie is on the phone with 911 and I saw the door opening I can`t run or walk properly from the fall I guess I musta hurt my ankle and knee . I backed up and turned and headed to the back of over mansion man this hose is huge I pulled the hood of my sweater over my black fitted that is covering my short blond hair . I am out of the house and made it out and I am hurting a bit but man I am out I am in Broadway ave I am Dominican/Puerto Rican and Russian and Irish , scottish and born in Warren Detroit MI along aside my two best friends we have been best friends since day zero ! I walked . I stopped cause man homie does my knee and ankle hurts I am Indina and German too ! I took off my sunglasses and yawned and rubbed my tears . I put them by on and headed to Jordan`s house man my boys got my back by time I got there I am feeling the pain I got in pass the Iron gate. I knocked on the door and swallowed hard I have the keys to his house but I knocked and sat down on the steps Shorty ?! I heard two voices saying that I got up seeing Jordan and Tony lets go to Detroit`s Receiving we got there doctor Vinney came in the room to check on me . I am hooked up to an a I .V , my knee , ankle are wrapped up I asked where my dad is um the doctor said room 220 ! He left the room . I got up holding on to the railing , Toni , Jordan yo take it easy . Yo I be back Jordan said I guess he`s getting a wheel chair I asked Toni when I am gonna be released he said I think now or later Jordan came back with a wheel chair and Nurse Zack and Doctor Vinney ok Nathan you are being released a little bit later we are getting the paper works ready and the nurse un hooked me from the I.V . Jordan wheeled me to dad`s room I saw dad and he smiled at me and got up came , hugged me , said to me don`t worry I will be with you little homey tomorrow ! I asked if I can take his sweater with me ?! sure . Uncle Roni took me home I said my goodnight prayers , I hove small bandages on my nose . I carefully took a shower and with Uncle Roni`s help he helped me put my socks on , I ate food and lay down on dad`s california king sized bed. Uncle Frank appeared , sat down next to me Jordan , Toni spent the night we mostly talked and watched movies , read . Jordan`s ears pricked up when he heard something , all of a sudden dad came wow he had a few little cuts on face , no other injuries . Dad said she`s outta the picture for good , she`s in prison . A couple of months later the wrapps were off my ankle and knee , I still have the bandage on my nose !
. Are you gonna get married again ?! I asked dad uh no after the hell yo mama put me through naw I am happy
we are finally happy and moved on with life , dad told me mama doesn`t love , she tried to kill me when I was inside her womb , since he told not to cause he doesn`t believe in women killing babies . He told her to have me , that he , the rest of the family will help him with me !
I love my dad , big brothers

Saturday, September 28, 2013

Nathan` Diary

My uncle Frank is picking me up . I made sure I had my stuff packed um yup a pair of boxers and an outfit a baggy black shirt and baggy sweater and fitted and clean black ankle socks and jeans and teeth brush and chocolate axe deodorant oh I am forgetting something um my iphone and I thouch I got them and stuffed them in the pockets of the sweater that I borrowed from dad . I also got my notebook and freestyle notebook and lyrics notebook too which I write in them ! Ok I am ready to go to his house oh my uncle Roni is gonna be there too uh not so bad condescending I can relate to him . I went downstairs cause I heard uncle Frank`s voice I said hi to him dad came from the long hallway Nathan guess where we going uh uncle Frank`s house ?! nope we are going to Pairs oh gosh I yelled outta happiness I hugged them all dad said hey little homey I kinda owned you a vacation since your mom made you watch her hitting me awe dad I hugged and hugged my big sister Sarah and two big brothers Michael and Romeo M and grandpas and dad said you are all packed I smiled at me and put the lash on my dog Jordan and we went to the airport and got on one of our private planes my best friends Jordan and Toni are here too .


We been best friends since day 0 aka since we came into the world ! Toni he is like a brother to me and so is Jordan too.

Pairs the city of  love .

Dad said boys !

We are gonna sing man in the mirror we went to sound check and then got ready whoa I almost fell over Jordan he is apart of the show I went in to the hallway  we backstage bout to go on stage . Me and my boys and our crew went into my dressing room and said a prayer we always pray before a show .

amen we all said . We got called before I went understage made sure my mike pack is on right Mrs. Annie checked it to and I got under the stage she turned it . We got lifted up boy the crowd went crazy I did a high pitch then Toni and then Jordan .

We went to change we each have on fitteds and sunglasses and we are ready to rap one of our rap songs this one is called Best homies from the alum best friends . We crowd surf . We once again went back stage to change I am gonna rap about my mom hitting my dad as to say my raps are mostly about what`s going on in my life and stuff not about money um no cause a real rap is about life and not about money anyways this rap song is called momma ain`t loving dad by the way my dad loves her so much and she went to jail and was on house arrest more then once and the next time she does something she`s getting prison time well the family lawyer Aaron is handling things     her away from dad . This rap song makes me cry I crowd surf again towards the end I bend down on my knees feeling the tears run down my face  rapped the last words ! I showered and changed . This vacation is awesome let me just say I love performing ! We sighed autographs and took pictures . We went back to the USA and I thanked dad and all of them .Dad told mom for them to go another room because he does not want me to hear her yelling and  he does not want me to see her hitting him dad stays quiet . She said ok in a harsh and cold and mean way she does not love me and dad . I secretly stood behind the door with silent tears falling down my eyes dad turned his head around he saw me and I could tell through his eyes that he was saying sorry little homey that you have to witness this and it is he way if telling me to go to another room before she gets a hold of me I started walking away but she told me to stay and to watch she always calls me stupid ghetto boy but I am very smart just like my daddy I don`t let that get to me it only builds me up more I stood there I said dad under my breath dad . Mom yelled in my face very loudly and that scares me and she laughs and smacked me and dad`s face turned bright red then he said in a calm and quiet way he said you can put a hand on me but do not you ever put yo' hands on him he`s our youngest son our baby and she craves yo' love and you don`t give him none I can tell dad holding back his tears cause his eyes are glossy but then he lets them out he wiped the tears off and  calmly walked towards me and  hugged me and gave me a kiss on the top of my head and it is all right um ok ! I said yeah and he told me to go to one of my rooms or the family room so I went to the very huge  basement I looked down at my black ankle socks and feeling the cold on my face from the A.C and I looked at the white title floor I went to my room and walk to my California king size bed and I stayed there a bit but I decided to go back upstairs so I did and went to  dad`s master bed room and walked to his California king size bed and I got down on my knees and prayed to God dad taught me and my sister and two brothers that before bed we gotta pray . I brushed my teeth and used the bathroom and went and climbed on dad`s side of the bed I know it sounds silly but I sleep in dad`s bed cause I feel safe with him next to me and it comforts me dad`s says I am extra special cause God made me that way . I don`t really understand somethings and I have issues with my weight I have to eat a lot of foods to keep me from losing weight I weigh 100 and need to be at 115 . And mom does not love because of that . It does not bother me I love her . I heard dad say his prayers and then climbed in bed and said goodnight baby boy and he hugs me all the time we feel asleep and to be honest I don`t really know what`s up with mom and what not sigh but I got dad and the rest of my family I am facing dad so he is the last I see before shutting my eyes I yawned and fell asleep  I am still holding on to dad !

Monday, September 16, 2013

Nathan's Diary

Dad is a little bit sleepy so he just sat on the couch and he looks like he is about to dose off ! He said  its a good time to take a nap isn't it shorty ? ! I smiled at him and dad was just staring at me !  Next thing I know dad was knocked out I just looked at uncle M I said well since dad is napping let's go to the mall and he said I could use any of his credit cards for anything I wanted ! OK ! Know u ?! Uncle M loves to say u know just like dad does . I went over to the other side of the living room to get dad's wallet and of course his sweater which is next to him I covered him up with the blanket that's on the couch and took his hat and black air Jordans off . I put them on since I can borrow anything from him dad said ! Me and uncle M got to the mall we went to sneakers heaven I looked around and pointed to the sneakers that I wanted to Mr. Shawn so he can get them in my size ! I turned around to face uncle M and only to find dad next to him I said daddy you came ! I hugged him yay dadi ! 
Mr. Shawn  came back with the sneakers I wanted I paid for them with dad's golden card ! I bought a couple of shirts and shorts and jeans !

We ate pizza and Chinese and Japanese food and we also signed a couple of pictures for our fans !

I brushed my teeth and said my prayers . And I went to bed and uncle M and dad are knocked out we all actually said our prayers together !

Uh um they are on my California king sized bed aye we are family !

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Nathan's Diary

I had a great day with my family and now I m off to bed . I prayed and brushed my
teeth and climbed into bed my dad came in and tucked me in and said goodnight and shut the lights off . My eyes started closing and then I felt something lick my hand it is Jordan I let him climb in my bed every night so he was telling me that he was there by licking my hand . He jumped on the bed and Jordan is asleep, I am wide awake, so I went to the other side of my room , turned on the desk lamp suddenly new rap lyrics started flooding my mind so I grabbed one of my lyrics notebook , before I knew it it was fillled with new lyrics and I grabbed my older lyrics notebook from way back when I started my career, wow I am successful, man I am proud of myself, I wrote so my rap songs , created movies with that I started feeling sleepy so I shut off the light , headed to bed , fallen asleep.


Monday, September 2, 2013

Nathan's Diary

Shorty they all call me that !

Yo Shorty shorty ?! Where are you at ?

I heard dad and uncle m and homey gs aka grandpas calling me . 
 
Yo I yelled from the top of my lunges I m in the basement in my room of course I yelled it first in the inter come and again from one of the stairs that leads you upstairs !

I have three rooms one in the third floor and in the attic ! We live in a huge when I say huge I mean very huge we has a elevator ! I know awesome .

Dad is a rapper grandpas are rappers too ! And I m a rapper  and uncle m too and my brothers my mom and grandmas are actresses and aunts too !

I love my big family !

Uncle m and dad and grandpas appear !

Man we have been looking for you every where ! Shorty you are sneaky but you're awesome !

I told dudes you know I love going from one room to another !

True that they all said !

We headed upstairs where the ladies are ! We sat down and said grace !

Ate our food ! Fried chicken and fried chicken salad and fries and mashed potatoes with gravy , chocolate cake with chocolate frost too and chocolate chip cookies !
Um I love this kind of foods !

Doctor Vicky and Doctor Addison they said I need to eat a lot to get me to weigh 130 right now I weigh 100 pound and they say that's not healthy so I always be getting lots of treatments too !

But that does not stop me from living my life ! I also  get sick easily too so dad and mom always stocking up on little fevers and little tummies since I am only 14 years and I can't take some of the grownups medicines yet so mom and dad stock up on baby tylenol . Well I started not feeling well . Mom checked my forehead to see if I have a fever well I do 100 .5 . I had to change my clothes so I showered too ! I put on a pair of baggy red basketball shorts and black ankle socks and a baggy black shirt ! I threw on dad's baggy red sweater cause I am so cold mama gave me all of the baby medicine and I just plopped myself down on the sofa looking like a zombie !

Greatlys my grandpas well mom's grandpa and dad's grandpa covered me up with my blanket that says I am 100% Puerto Rican ! And Puerto Rican pride baby ! Mom came to me to check the fever !

Mom said aye sorry shorty we gotta take you to the hospital 103.5 !

Dad went to get my book bag with the clothes we leave in there for when I am sick and probably need to stay in the hospital !

Uncle M scooped me up and carried me to the car ! Well off to the hospital !

We arrived at the hospital ! All childrens' hospital ! Dad parked and checked me in and doctor Addison said I needed to have emergency kidney surgery ! Nurses Alex and Andy prepared me and put a mask over my face and explaining what their are doing ! Well I woke up ! I have to stay there for 3 to 4 weeks ! My best friends Jordan and Tony  came to see me we talked like we always do and draw and played games . They gave get well soon homey cards ! The weeks past by and I recovered fully !

I went back to my normal self ! I had a sleep over with my best friends ! Let's say we got hyper just laughing at uncle m getting crazy hyper !

My dog Jordan came he's a standard poodle with puffy white hair and big huge brown eyes yeah I named Jordan after Jordan I was little when I got him he was just a puppy ! He jumped on the bed .

I am glad I am fully recovered and being able to have fun !

Lil Nate Shorty

Saturday, August 31, 2013

Nathan"s Diary

Me: dad

Dad: yeah baby boy ?!

Me: you are awesome

Dad: thanks so  are you son !

Dad is just staring at me and smiling too ! :)

Me: I m so grateful to have u as my daddy ! And I love u so very much dad !

Dad gets up and comes to me to hug me !

Dad: I love u too !And grateful to be your dad ! And u are awesome and smart !

Me: thanks dad !

Dad is still hugging me !


Dad: your welcome ! 




I am an a daddy 's little boy , anyway I moved closer to dad , I rested my head on his chest , I love hearing his heart beat it calms me, makes me sleepy I yawned  . An idea pops up in my head , I looked up at dad , smiled at him.


Me: dad do you want apple juice ?!


Dad yes please 


I went to the kitchen, after pouring some juice into a cup , I poured hot sauce , salt into it yes I do pranks on dad . 


Me: here you daddy


Dad raised his eyebrows , gave me a smile wow I has his smile ๐Ÿ’›.

Dad: thanks baby boy 



I stood up as I saw dad notcing what I put in his juice .


Dad: Nathan stay there 


I stared at him for a second , l ran out of the room , I started laughing , screaming I finally made it to my room.


I completely lost it , started laughing harder . I heard dad's foot steps getting closer , plus since my room is super huge I can hide anywhere 

I cralwed into the air vent.


Dad: you will always make me laugh baby boy .


Ok so maybe he did fine me but here I love being chased by him .


Me: I love you so much dad but I am ready to get out of this vent , take a nap


Dad smiles , nodded 


Dad : I love you too son .


Me , dad got out , went to my bed , laid on it , I settled my head down on dad's chest .





Saturday, July 13, 2013

Nathan`s Diary

Ugh ! daddy!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can you please  come up to my room please ?! I screamed while standing outside the first room you see when you are coming up the stairs . He laughed a little said yes as he was standing up and putting down his notebook and pen on the wooden light brown desk that`s in the room !   Dad put his around my shoulders as we walked towards my room . We got there , I said I can`t find Mr bear , my baby blue baby blanket I had the bear , the blanket since I was 1 week old M gave them to me yeah yeah I `am 14 years old I know but they mean a lot to me because M is my brother ,he , his wife  adopted me so that is why I call me daddy cause we don`t know our dad , mama got in a car crash that left unstable , she can`t take care of me but that was a long time of ago I visit her from time to time . M found my bear , blanket , tucked me in my California king size bed , he also lay down next to me my eyes started closing so I told him daddy , he said yes ? Love you , he said I love you too son ! Before I knew it I was knocked out . 

I `am daddy`s little boy well um the only son he has because he has 3 beautiful girls its a pleasure to be his kid ! 

Lil Nate Shotti

Thursday, June 27, 2013

Nathan's Diary

Yeah right ! Ay I don't even know where to start . Yo I kinda down . Well basically I "m going though some changes . I lock myself in my room from time to time my family and homies and best friends are worried about . I thought you know keep it a secret just hind behind a fake smile but I can't going back to my old ways there's no way I can't put a knife through my skin so I just write in a notebook ! Yeah I cry cause that's what I do it helps when I write raps are what I write yo ! And I just told homey g what I was feeling he is one of my homies anyways talking to him made me feel better ! He's great role model in fact he's one of my role models ! Feeling great after the talk and a couple of hours of crying ! He told lil homey sometimes da best way to ease da pain is to cry ! Yo that made me feel better ! Lil Nate Shotti

Friday, April 19, 2013

NATHAN`S DAIRY

THE CLOUDS ARE BLACK IN THE SKY . IT STARTED THUNDERING VERY BADLY AND LIGHTING TOO ! RIGHT AWAY I GATHERED MY STUFF AND PUT THEM IN A BASKET THAT WAS ON THE FLOOR AND I CALLED AFTER MY WHITE STANDARD POODLE JORDAN TO COME AND HE CAME AND WE BOTH WENT TO GO IN THE HOUSE MOM AND DAD WHERE THERE WAITING FOR ME AND JORDAN TO GET IN THE HOUSE AS DAD WAS CLOSING THE DOOR IT STARTED POURING AND DAD LOCKED THE DOOR AND PULLED THE BRIGHT RED DRAPES TOGETHER AND ME AND ME AND JORDAN THE REST OF THE FAMILY ALL SAT TOGETHER ON THE SOFA AND THE LIGHTS WENT AWAY SO I CUDDLE UP WITH JORDAN BECAUSE I WAS KINDA IF SCARED IF THE CRAZY THUNDERSTORM THAT WAS GOING ON BUT THEN AGAIN I DON`T NEED TO ME SCARED BECAUSE I HAVE GOD WITH AND MY FAMILY TOO ! SO I FORGOT ABOUT WHAT WAS GOING ON OUT OUT . AND MOM GIVE ME JORDAN`S RED HAIRBRUSH SO I CAN BRUSH HIS HAIR AND HIS RED BANDANNA SO I CAN PUT IT ON HIM . HE SAT CALMLY BUT A LITTLE SHAKY WHILING I WAS BRUSHING HIS VERY SOFT FUR AND THEN I SAT THE HAIR BRUSH DOWN AND TIED THE BANDANNA ON HIS HEAD . AND THAT MADE HIM SLEEPY SO HE LIED DOWN ON THE FLOOR AND CLOSED HIS EYES AND WENT TO SLEEP AND SO I TOO LIED ON THE FLOOR NEXT TO JORDAN WENT TO SLEEP TOO . THE WEATHER HERE IN RUSSIA CAN GET A LITTLE BIT CRAZY !
LIL NATE SHOTTI

Monday, April 15, 2013

NATHAN` DAIRY

MY DAD IS SO FUNNY AND HYPER WELL I GIT THAT FROM HIM . AND HE IS SO FUN AND HE SPOILS ME SO MUCH WITH CUSTOM MADE IPHONE CASES AND DIAMOND RINGS AND BRACELETS AND CHAIN I LOVE THAT HE DOES THAT BUT YO DA MOST IMPORTANT THANG IS HIS LOVE TO ME ! I LOVE MY DAD AND I KNOW HE LOVES ME TOO . AND I WOULD DO ANY THANG TO PROTECT HIM AS HE DOES TO ME . I THANK GOD SO MUCH TO PUT A WONDERFUL MAN LIKE MY DAD . MY DAD IS MY KING AND I M HIS PRINCE I LOVE U DAD AND THANK YOU SO MUCH 4 ALL U DO AND HAS DONE FOR ME AND DAD YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND BEFORE MY OTHERS . 

LIL NATE SHOTTI

Saturday, April 13, 2013

NATHAN`S DAIRY

I M HAVING SO MUCH FUN ! I GOT TO GO TO MANY INTERVIEWS WITH I.T IS SO MUCH FUN WHEN THEY ASK MANY QUESTIONS TO HIM AND THEY WHEN INTERVIEW ME TOO  ! I WENT BACK TO RUSSIA I LOVE GOING THERE I LOVE SEEING ALL THE DIFFERENT PLACES THERE AND THE FOOD IS GREAT AND I GIT TO LEARN EVEN MO ABOUT MY FAMILY YO ! AND MY GANGSTAS AND HOMIES ARE TEACHING ME ABOUT ALL DA DIFFERENT PARTS AND FOODS IN RUSSIA ! I LOVE RUSSIA AND I LOVE PLAYING WITH THE RUSSIAN DOLLS MY FAMILY HAS FROM MANY MANY YEARS ! MY MOMMA AND DADDY SAYS I FIT PERFECTLY IN RUSSIA BECAUSE OF MY SHORT YELLOW BLONDE AND BABY BLUE/ HAZEL EYES I GOT MY LOOKS FROM DAD`S AND MOM`S SIDE OF THE FAMILY ! LIFE IS SO GOOD HOMEY I M SO HAPPY I GIT TO LIVE ANOTHER DAY ! :) LIL NATE SHOTTI 

Sunday, March 17, 2013

Nathan's Diary

My Homeys and gangstas means so much .  They like my family its always fun to hang out with them . They are always there 4 me when I them the most  . Lil Nate Shotti

Sunday, March 3, 2013

Nathan`s Diary

love my family with my hold heart.
My love is Joy to love my family
Family is sad and happy and love.
Family is fun and painful and pretty.
My family is like all families we have
love and we have happiness and tears
I love my hold family
My family is like angels who fly in sky
I am grateful that I have family that loves
me.
My family are kind and nice and fun to be
around
My family is painful like all familys are and
heart breaking and Evil sometimes
My family is heart breaking and deadly like
everyone else
Hey I can't stop loving my family not matter what
it coats in the family.
Way my family is just makes me want have family
with someone be as good as they are.
But God know I love my family
and our love is great to have in life
and even know they leave he world they still
a live in my hearts. LIL NATE SHOTTI

Friday, February 22, 2013

Nathan`s Diary



Uncle Ronney : ahh you know ?! I love hanging out with you it`s so awsome !
Me : it`s awsome being around u Uncle Ronney : My lil munchkin I love u so much ! me: yeah I love u too ! But I m hungry ! Uncle Ronney : what do u wanna eat ? Me : chips and choclate chip cookies please ! Uncle Ronney : here u go Me : thank you general Ronney Uncle Ronney : yo welcome and u don`t gotta call me general me: But u are in the Navy Seals and I think you are 25 years old ? Uncle Ronney : I know but u don`t gotta be formal with me you are my nephew just call me Ronney or uncle and dad , yeah I`m 25 me: ok Ronney ! By the way u r crazy Uncle Ronney : haha lol I know Me : can I go to Las vegas beach ? Uncle Ronney : ok but why there ? Me : it was a joke !
Uncle Ronney : ah okay !
Me: what color are your eyes Ronney ? Uncle Ronney : well hazel and baby blue ! Me : Like mines Uncle Ronney ; yeah and u can pass as my son ! Me : that`s so cool dad! Uncle Ronney : yeah son Me; In love u Uncle Ronney : ; ) I love u too ! Me: :)

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

Poem

Life is rough sometimes but keep on going and hold your head up head . oh life why are u so harsh most of the time  keep the people who support u n keep the ones who don't outta of your life .

Friday, February 15, 2013

Nathan`s Diary


I m so happy I m going to Russia and then to the Dominican R.E.P and Puerto Rico and ireland to visit to learn about where my family came from . And study the arts and I m going to school in these places where I m going and it awesome and my whole family is coming with me <3 and my two baushkas and two grandpas are gonna teach me how to properly dance the Russian dance . I love my background and I m gona learn more about my background and where each of my family member from the 1445 to now how awesome I m so happy.
Lil Nate shotti

Monday, February 11, 2013

Nathan's Diary

Ok so I have to still use a wheelchair after the stitches comes out, because the inside of me is still healing .  Well we arrived at Doctor Zack's office ,and I was taken to the back once we got to the 8th floor of the building . 



Ok everything is looking good , and it's time to get the stitches out , both Dr. Zack and Nurse Raffy said , as you already knew from the last visit that you will have to still use the wheelchair and you can walk but remember to hold on to someone when you do if you feel you can't walk on your own , Dr. Zack said as he put on gloves and waited for Nurse Raffy pre paired the tools . 

It's going to sting a little as I clean around the area , Nusre Raffy said , ok after he cleaned it and place a gaze.  Ok uncley let me help , Baby Tony said to me as he gave me his hands to hold onto , I got up and thanked him.  My sons and other two nephews are out of state at the moment so it's me and Baby T whom is watching me like a hawk aye this kid I love very much so we are both looking out for each other , I walked slowly, of course my nephew, walked beside me , I put my arms around him , which got him excited, I know his cousins will be happy top especially Rabbit and Baby Marshall , I suddenly got a flashback, about the boys , when they were infants , Baby Tony grabbed a small jar of chocolate icing and spread some on Baby Jordan and Rabbit and Baby Marshall ๐Ÿ˜‚than he grabbed a chocolate pudding and ate that in one second. 


Aye my nephew love you so much, I said to him.  Love you very much too uncle shorty , Baby Tony said to me . 


I love spending time with you, unlcey , Baby Tony said to me , yeah I love spending time with you too , Baby I said to him . I gave him , a hug please be careful, remember you still can't do certain things yet , although the hug was light , Baby Tony said to me 


I know , you are always concerned and worried , T I said to him , well I do that plus you are my uncle , he said , ok I have two weeks to get completely healed , so be prepared, cause I will get you , I said to him , uh ok well I love it when you chase me , he said to me . 






Friday, February 8, 2013

Nathan`s Diary

like toy soldiers 

step by step heart to heart 

we all fall down 

bit by bit they tore us apart 

we never win but

the battle wages 4 toy soldiers

I m supposed 2 the soldier who never blows his composure

even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders

I ain`t supposed 2 show it 2 my crew I m supposed 2 set an example

Lil Nate Shotti

Thursday, February 7, 2013

Nathan`s Diary

My big brothers Addison and Jordan are always there for me . They bring the best outta of me . we have a strong bond that is thicker then meat . My big brothers they me advice about any thing life throws at me . They hug me when I m scared and stay by my side all the time . And they answer all my questions I ask them . They are always willing to offer a helping for people . They show me how smart and handsome I m . My big brothers one is 25 and the other 27 . I thank my mama and daddy rising such great men I wanna be like my big brothers when I grow up . They will always be there for me til the end my brothers are my best homies . They are funny and loving and caring . They hasve my back and I have theirs I might only be 14 years old but I understand when something is up with them . When I feel like fighting with my homies and ganstas and best friends they stop me before I start to fight and they tell me I should not fight them but to love them as my own blood . I m glad God made them my brothers ! They know when I sometimes get upset but they make happy . They chase away the bad dreams and bring the happy ones I love my big brothers to death . Lil Nate Shotti

Monday, February 4, 2013

Nathan`s Diary



A person I have always looked up too
He is one of my best homies
He can make conversation with anyone
He has stories about everything
He has taught me more than i can even remember
I hope someday i can be half the man he is
I can talk to him about anything
My uncle is like a second father to me my uncle reminds me of my daddy he is my role model
he is honest and outgoing he is sweet as pie he is just barely 25 years old but is so wise the stories he tells are just so wonderful he is so much fun to be around he is funny I can talk to him about anything just like I can with my dad he keeps me safe he is so smart I love you my sweet dear uncle I m proud to be your nephew and I m glad you are my uncle .
Lil Nate Shotti

Sunday, February 3, 2013

Nathan`s Diary ( text message)


Nate : Hey
T.I : wad up Shotti
Nate: How are you doing ?
T.I : good how about you ?
Nate: I m good
T.I : that is good what you up to ?
Nate: nothing just relaxing listing to rap .
T.I : awsome who you lising to ?
Nate: all she wrote
T.I: lol u are listing to me while texting me!
Nate : yeah lol that is funny .
T.I : yup so are you happy ?
Nate yeah so happy
T.I: that is awsome !
Nate: thanks for helping me :) yo !
T.I : yo welcome if u need to talk some more I m here 4 you homie !
Nate: yeah I know

Saturday, February 2, 2013

Nathan`s Diary

Smile for no reason . Live life to the fullest go to places that you that u wanna go .Love your life . Hang out withe the homies cause you never know when you will lose them . Life is precious love is just a word you bring definition . Hold on to the moment . Make your dreams come true . Just be you , love yourself . Don`t beat yourself up just because you made a mistake cause that mistake yo will turn in to something great . Don`t harm yourself talk to someone . Hold your head up high . I know I changed the way I handle my feelings I just wrote to my favorite rapper that help , I m happy and also I talked to my gangstas and homies that helped me alot . I m so grateful to have my boys . Life is worthy don`t harm don`t hind your feelings talk to someone. Like I did !
walk with yo head held up high .

Lil Nate Shotti

Friday, February 1, 2013

Nathan`s Dairy

I m so happy . I smile for no reason . I just go and talk to someone . I live a healthy harmless free life . 
I just lay down and close my eyes when bad feelings comes and think happy thoughts . M y gangstas and homies see the change in me they don`t see the sad boy they used to see . And they now see a very happy boy . I m so happy I just shake the bad thoughts and go on with life because life is worth to live . Thanks to T.I`s help I love my life . I don`t cry no more . 

Lil Nate Shotti

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Nathan`s Dairy (poem)



My boys have my back and I have theirs .

Their are my brothers my homies and gangstas .

They don`t need to ask to borrow my stuff they can take them . 
They do. They give me a shoulder to cry on and a bucket to catch every tear and a tissue to wipe my eyes . They put their lives at risk to save me . 
They take care of me when I m sick . They guide me through life . They help me get through
the ups and downs . They stay up all night talking to me when they notice something wrong with me . They don`t gotta ask to get some food from the cupboard cause my house is theirs . They mend my heart when it is broke when something bad happens . We are thick and tine .

They know all of my secrets even if I don`t tell them . They don`t ask questions they just know . When I m cold they give me one of their sweaters . My boys lift my spirit up they make me laugh .When I skin my knees they wipe the blood away .And tell it is ok
Lil Nate Shotti

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Nathan's dairy

Sometimes I just gotta swallow my own tears . I go and hold my head up high I choke while I m fighting my tears but sometimes I just let them come out sometimes I can't control them but sometimes I do .

Lil Nate Shotti

Monday, January 28, 2013

Nathan`s Dairy






Now I can express my feelings and tell my homies how I feel without having to lash out on myself . I just keep my head held high and go on with life and I don`t got to put them through so much pain and worries . I just grab my notebook and a pen and write my feelings down and I even turn some of them in to rap or a poem . I just look up to the sky and say thank you
Jesus for being there for me and putting someone there to help me . I don`t gets to hind my feelings no more . I now understand it is okay to talk to someone ! When I feel like crying I just let the tears come out I know sometimes I just need a good cry afterwards I feel a lot better .
Lil Nate Shotti

Sunday, January 27, 2013

Nathan`s Dairy


Dear Nate
I m never busy for a fan in need . I m always here to help you in any way that I can and you can write to me anytime . You can write you feelings down in a notebook and when you feel like cutting just pick up a pen and a piece of paper and write . Please do me a favor throw that knife away it will help more if you do that . And each letter you send me I will answer here`s a quote I wrote just hold yo head up high the errors you make will turn into somethang
great . Remember I m always here to help just keep on writing to me
from T.I

Nathan`s Dairy


dear T.I I m writing you this letter to let 
you know that I need some help from you . You are 
probably busy but I know when you get some time you will so I gonna tell you 
anyway ! I cut myself and I don`t know why I started doing that and I wanna stop before it gets out of hand and I need some one who I can talk to and who understands me . I cry almost all the time I just hind behind a tear of a clown sounds silly right ? I tell my self everything will be fine just another story .

from your 1 # Lil Nate Shotti

Friday, January 25, 2013

Nathan`s Dairy

 try my best to hid my tears when I m around my gangstas and homies . But I can`t I always seem to let the tears roll down and they know the pain I m going through and they say to me it is gonna be right . And I know they are right but it is hard I thank them for being there . So I learned that it is ok to cry 

Lil Nate Shottie

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Nathan`s Dairy

Not another day goes by without me thinking to my self where would I be ? If i don`t asked for help . I m so glad I did I so sorry for putting my gangstas and homies through so much pain and making them worry all the time ! I m so happy that they helped me through my struggles and helped me realized that what I was putting my life in danger . I told them every thing in detailed . 

Lil Nate Shotti

Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Nathan`s Dairy

Go head judge me ! Any way you are no one to judge me God is da only one who can to judge me . So take your hating self somewhere okay! This lil dude don`t roll like that . 

Lil Nate Shottie

Monday, January 21, 2013

Nathan`s Diary

People come and go out of the USA 
yeah it hurts to see the person you love and care to leave . Simply because they don`t have their papers done yet ! YO I mean I gotta help them stay here in the USA they have freedom and rights to be here . 

Lil Nate Shotti

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Nathan`s Diary

Life is so awsome . Love is a special thing could ever happen to someone why hate on love when love is good when everything in life is good . I m so thankful to have such great gangstas and homies in my life they help me get through the tough and good times that life throw at me ! Lil Nate Shotti

Friday, January 18, 2013

Joshua


here you go honey said Joshua`s mom . His little chubby face lite up he crawled fast towards the plate of food . Joshua grabbed a fist full of mac n cheese and stuffed it in his mouth .Then He dunk his head in the he had cheese all over his face and on his nose . His mom came back and oh some one needs a bath . So she gave Joshua a bath and put a clean pair of pjs and layed him down for a nap and gave him a kiss on his cheek he fell asleep.

Nathan's Diary

Life is so good I m glad to have my gangstas and homies. I have learned not to  think that cutting is a trend and that is dangerous and i could die . I thank them for helping ! I m so happy that I m in treatment and I will not do that again . Now I learned that I just can go and take to one of my gangstas or homies .

Lil Nate Shotti

Monday, January 7, 2013

Nathan's Diary

Yeah my life is getting better and better. I can't be more happy I thank God and my gangstas n homies
Lil Nate Shotti

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Nathan's Diary

I m greatful to have my gangstas and homies . They help  me get through
Tha  bad times . 
Lil Nate Shotti