Nathan`s Dairy (poem)

My boys have my back and I have theirs .

Their are my brothers my homies and gangstas .

They don`t need to ask to borrow my stuff they can take them . 
They do. They give me a shoulder to cry on and a bucket to catch every tear and a tissue to wipe my eyes . They put their lives at risk to save me . 
They take care of me when I m sick . They guide me through life . They help me get through
the ups and downs . They stay up all night talking to me when they notice something wrong with me . They don`t gotta ask to get some food from the cupboard cause my house is theirs . They mend my heart when it is broke when something bad happens . We are thick and tine .

They know all of my secrets even if I don`t tell them . They don`t ask questions they just know . When I m cold they give me one of their sweaters . My boys lift my spirit up they make me laugh .When I skin my knees they wipe the blood away .And tell it is ok
Lil Nate Shotti

Nathan's dairy

Sometimes I just gotta swallow my own tears . I go and hold my head up high I choke while I m fighting my tears but sometimes I just let them come out sometimes I can't control them but sometimes I do .

Lil Nate Shotti

Nathan`s Dairy

Now I can express my feelings and tell my homies how I feel without having to lash out on myself . I just keep my head held high and go on with life and I don`t got to put them through so much pain and worries . I just grab my notebook and a pen and write my feelings down and I even turn some of them in to rap or a poem . I just look up to the sky and say thank you
Jesus for being there for me and putting someone there to help me . I don`t gets to hind my feelings no more . I now understand it is okay to talk to someone ! When I feel like crying I just let the tears come out I know sometimes I just need a good cry afterwards I feel a lot better .

Lil Nate Shotti

Nathan`s Dairy

Dear Nate

I m never busy for a fan in need . I m always here to help you in any way that I can and you can write to me anytime . You can write you feelings down in a notebook and when you feel like cutting just pick up a pen and a piece of paper and write . Please do me a favor throw that knife away it will help more if you do that . And each letter you send me I will answer here`s a quote I wrote just hold yo head up high the errors you make will turn into somethang
great . Remember I m always here to help just keep on writing to me

from T.I

Nathan`s Dairy

dear T.I I m writing you this letter to let 
you know that I need some help from you . You are 
probably busy but I know when you get some time you will so I gonna tell you 
anyway ! I cut myself and I don`t know why I started doing that and I wanna stop before it gets out of hand and I need some one who I can talk to and who understands me . I cry almost all the time I just hind behind a tear of a clown sounds silly right ? I tell my self everything will be fine just another story .

from your 1 # Lil Nate Shotti

Nathan`s Dairy

Not another day goes by without me thinking to my self where would I be ? If i don`t asked for help . I m so glad I did I so sorry for putting my gangstas and homies through so much pain and making them worry all the time ! I m so happy that they helped me through my struggles and helped me realized that what I was putting my life in danger . I told them every thing in detailed . 

Lil Nate Shotti

Nathan`s Dairy

Go head judge me ! Any way you are no one to judge me God is da only one who can to judge me . So take your hating self somewhere okay! This lil dude don`t roll like that . 

Lil Nate Shottie

Nathan`s Diary

People come and go out of the USA 
yeah it hurts to see the person you love and care to leave . Simply because they don`t have their papers done yet ! YO I mean I gotta help them stay here in the USA they have freedom and rights to be here . 

Lil Nate Shotti

Nathan`s Diary

Life is so awsome . Love is a special thing could ever happen to someone why hate on love when love is good when everything in life is good . I m so thankful to have such great gangstas and homies in my life they help me get through the tough and good times that life throw at me ! Lil Nate Shotti

Joshua

here you go honey said Joshua`s mom . His little chubby face lite up he crawled fast towards the plate of food . Joshua grabbed a fist full of mac n cheese and stuffed it in his mouth .Then He dunk his head in the he had cheese all over his face and on his nose . His mom came back and oh some one needs a bath . So she gave Joshua a bath and put a clean pair of pjs and layed him down for a nap and gave him a kiss on his cheek he fell asleep.

Nathan's Diary

Life is so good I m glad to have my gangstas and homies. I have learned not to  think that cutting is a trend and that is dangerous and i could die . I thank them for helping ! I m so happy that I m in treatment and I will not do that again . Now I learned that I just can go and take to one of my gangstas or homies .

Lil Nate Shotti

Nathan's Diary

I m greatful to have my gangstas and homies . They help  me get through
Tha  bad times . 
Lil Nate Shotti