Nathan's Diary

I watched as Baby Tony ,put the clean sheets on the bed. I started thinking about my mom I am having flash backs about the stuff she put me and dad through and she lied to dad  said that she wanted them to worked it out  and wanted me and her to have a stable mother and son relationship , she didn't mean the stuff she said to me and the stuff she did .  I caught mommy doing stuff you are supposed  to do with your husband or wife with other men a few times I didn't said anything to them I just would go and went the other side of the house with Jordan and buried my head on his fur and waited for uncle Rony since I would call him or one of our friends depending on who was in charge of me  man I miss her so much .

Are you ok ? Baby Tony asked me yes I am ,nephew I said to him , ok just making sure that you are good ,he said to me as he  hugged me , I love you Baby I said to him , love you too Nate , Baby Tony said back .


I left the room and headed downstairs , and opened the front door , beauitful day here in Detroit , I felt something fluffy rubbed aganist my legs , ok its either Jordan or Tony and Nathan or all three dogs so I looked down , yes its all of them.

Baby Tony do you want to go for a walk ? I asked him , sure I do , he said happily as he petted the dogs . 

I talked to mom and than went to bed happy I got to talk with her

Story

me and my best friend have the same first name and middle name different last names , my full name is Tony Nathan Corona , his is Tony Nathan santos we were both born in Detroit City , he is my brother , he helps me get through tough situations, knows just the right words to say when I am down or unsure of stuff , he got my back and I have his back, we tour with each other at times and stared in the same movies and we guest stared in a couple of tv shows as brothers ! I love working with Tony hes fun to work with and fun to be around , we have a rap-song ft each other called best friends and we both separately 
have a couple called my best friend in spanish and english too apart from being rappers and singers and write our own songs and being actors we are also hip hop and break dancers and boxers and mixed marshal arts is also apart of our career also we are writers anyways apart from having the same career ,
Tony helps me deal with the deployments of our dads , he tells me that papi is ok and is proceted by God always , and he handles his dad's deployment a little better than me but than again he`s my rock , our dads are Navy Seals , yes we don`t know where are dads are when they aren`t home , sometimes papi Jay doesn`t get deployed at the same time as dad so I stay closer to him than normal "cause" we never know when he is gonna get called into an emergncy mission that he has to go and does not have a choice to say no , other times they can but the deployments are mandatory , holy goodiness , I give papi and papi Jay extra hugs cause me and T don`t know when they are going to get called for an emergncy mission , being a military teen is hard especially since me and T are only 16 yrs old , I cry a couple of times when papi isnt home , I just try to get my tours scheduled the same time dad is set to be deployed which is always and also papi got to come on tour with me a few times and got to be behind the scenes of my music viedos and movies and he has suprised me a couple of times ayer papi has seen some of the crazest scenes like the time I was making a movie and one of the scenes was near the ocean and I had to get on a yacht , I had to get into the water but I was going to go in slowly but just decided to throw myself from the boat I know how to swim in the ocean by the way both Tony and dad were shocked and also our manager Pray who was playing my movie dad juat looked at me like I was outta my mind I like have fun plus jumping into the water has saved me . I also do some work with the fire fighters mainly I clean up the fire station and do paper work and little errands for them , I get to go to New York too to help The FDNY AND NYPD too , I do more stuff with the cops , I am in a program and its also educational too , I get to work a lot with different officers whom are my friends too I get to work with officer Randy he is fuuny .
I get mean letters handed to me from mean people when I go out of Detroit I have came back home and completely broke down crying cause I don`t know how to handle certain situations I don`t pay attention to the words it is just the stress gets spilled over for me , T always helps me calm down and helps me we go to officer Randy or MR. Mitchell or any of our adult friends , also Aaron whom is only 17 yrs old but he knows how to help but of course if dad or papi Jay is home we go to them, there were times that papi Jay was home and it was just me and him I just would show hime the letters and he is just like dad he notices when something is bothering me , T is the same way they can easily read my mood , I had gotten threats and got hurt by mean people , I am proected by the military and poilce as well as T too , buttom line is that me and my best friend went trhough a lot currently I broke up with my only girlfriend I have ever had , due to her not wanting to change and she started showing her true clolors T and papi and papi Jay and our friends didn`t approved of her , T a couple of times had to calm me down because I got so worked up over stuff she did and she broke a lot of promises and faked changed and what not she was making my stress levels worse now on top of dealing with a break up currently dealing with bullies meaning her friends , she is in prision , I am trying not to go crazy , I cry a lot now I miss her but I had to make the decision , I am an exsample for kids especially little boys and I never had done anything bad or broke the law and I would like to stay that way , now I am not perfect I had a couple of times I didn`t do my chores I got a letcher from both papi and papi Jay , the other times were cause I was sick and down .
I love my best friend and I do any thing for him , just like he helps me I help him , I love my family ,apart from my dad , T is one of my role model and one of the people I look up to incluuding papi Jay . Mess with my brother I will go off on you and also jus about anyone I love I will stand up for them.
T had to hold me before I would go off on a person , who put ahand on me he let me hit them just to get them off of me but he tells me they aren`t worth my time , there were times I did fight , but other than that I am innocent and always have to get things explained to me . I gave Tony a hug when I saw him, don`t worry pa ,keep your head held up high , and don`t keep everything inside yell and scream when you want to , and I will be here for you all the time bro , I know it hurts alot , everything will be ok and good love you papi , he said to me as he gave me a hug , yes I know bro , love you too toast , I said to him .

Nathan's dairy

Ok uncley I am going to clean up the sessions and change the bandages , and get you ready for the day Baby Tony said to me , ok nephew I said to him . I just held on to my teddy bear , ok you are ready Baby Tony said with happiness in his voice and Baby Marshall brought in the wheel chair , Baby Tony put me in the wheelchair and covered my lap with a blanket , put the tray that belongs to the wheelchair in its place I just watched as my nephews and sons tidy up mines and Candy's room .  Here I will lift up Jordan up so you can pet him :) Tony said thank you best friend  I said to him than he lifted up his dog Tony than Jordan's dog Nathan ,  I am more happy now that I got to pet the dogs . 

 

Here you go baby boy , daddy said to me as he handed me my teddy bear that I accidentally dropped on the floor thank you pops I said to him , no problem as anything for my boy he said as he put back on his seat belt . 

 

Dad got out , and he  opened up the wheelchair and he than unbuckled me , and sat me down carefully and strapped me in and covered me up with the blanket I had on me and he smiled at me as he locked in the tray . We are here at the historical museum of Detroit , dad locked the breaks on the chair , of course Baby Tony stood by my side like a guard you know you can use the bathroom I am not going anywhere, I said to him 

are you going be ok ? Here by yourself, uncley , Baby Tony asked me with worry in his voice, of course I am I replied to him .  I just wrote down the stuff I want to do after my recovery . 

Baby Tony stood at the same spot where he was before , are you ok uncley ? Baby Tony asked me with worry and cornce in his voice , yes I am , I said to him .

  You are always by my side as if you were a bodyguard I said to Baby Tony as I laugh a little well you are after all my daddy's best friend I do the same with uncle Jordan he said . 

Nathan's dairy

There are many reasons I love my dad he's always there for me no matter what we both went through a lot together also he wiped my tears countless of times my dad is the best and he's my hero . I am grateful and proud to be his son because of my dad I am the man and father that I am and I act like him in a way 😂it doesn't matter the time weather I am on tour or he's on tour we call each other and write to each other . I Thank God for my dad . Gosh I love that man ❤️

Little Nate Shorty .

Nathan's Diary vacation !

  We are leaving the states to go to  Tokyo After being in the plane for 16 hours we finally got to Toyko and its already noon here plus we are all hungry so we went straight to the house we have here to get cleaned up and changed so we can go eat something for lunch and explore the Toyko area . I love coming to Japan because some of my family background comes from here especially in Toyko . 

 

My sons are so happy to be back in Toyko plus they are happy because I came home yesterday I love my  God and career and my family and friends ,fans .  

We went shopping after that had dinner . Well I had a very long and fun day what a great way to start vacation I said my goodnight prayers with my family and headed to bed . 

Little Nate Shotti 

Nathan's diary

Goodnight Russia  , I said to my fans after signing autographs and taking pictures with them . 

I got inside of the limousine, now I'm on the way to the airport. I can't wait to go home and relax . 

 

After over 12 hours on the plane finally we landed , and I slept the whole plane ride and I am energized plus it's morning time over here in the U.S. so I am going to start planning where we are going on vacation . Yay I am with my sons already . I missed you guys so much I said to them after our little group hug I went to take a shower so I can go out to eat with my family . 💙

Little Nate Short !

Nathan's Dairy

I'm father , being a dad is so much fun , at times it's hard but hey I get my daddy who is the reason why I am the man that I am today , I love him , he's a great father , he always took his time to always ask me if I was ok or I needed to talk , every important men in my life made sure that I was ok , I also have my two best friends. I have young father or new fathers whom are my fans and friends come to me asking me for advice and help , I feel good about that .

I love my sons , God have given me the biggest blessings in life that is me being a father ! 

Little Nate Shorty !

 

Nathan's diary

I just finished my last show of my tour , here in New York , Candy called me before the show , yeah she is heading to the jungle of South Africa , so basically that was our last content, man wish you could use a phone in the jungle I understand tho because she is working , I don't worry much because a she is with Sandy , mama , b she is very faithful to me as I am faithful to her . 

Well I am not alone T , J are with me , along side with our dads , the kids . 

After signing autographs, taking pictures with my fans , I turned around, said I love you so much my sweet New Yorkers , New York . 

I had small interview now I also have interviews before a show , after a show , well interviews are apart of the career . 

I said a small prayer with my crew , I said good night to everyone, Shorty I thought you said that you were hungry dad is me , oh yeah I did said that , causing everyone to laugh a little . 

After eating , brushing my teeth , saying good night to everyone I headed to the back of the bus , settled down in bed , closing the red, black bed curtain , I moved towards the wall because I love sleeping next to the wall , just as I got comfortable , I felt the currtians opening , and my sons , nephews appeared, yes I am letting sleep with me after they got comfortable, I started drifting off to sleep , I was able to fall asleep after asking Baby Marshall if he can get dad , after thanking him I finally fallen asleep , knowing that I has all of the persons I want here !

Little Nate Shotti !

Nathan`s Diary

Am I hyper right now , I get that way when am I sleepy so dad makes sure or who ever am I staying with fit in a nap schedule for me, I`m running around so uncle Em is babysitting . It`s a chasing game I hide under his bed once he was out of the room which he checked his closet than his bathroom so the coast is clear I feed like my foot was on fire ! I ran down the stairs , went to the hallway that`s a foot away from the staircase , its facing it too , I kinda saw Em`s shadow so I headed towards the kitchen , hide in the cupboard , I thought I was safe um nope I ain`t Em open the cupboard , smiled , said you know um ok you gonna take yo" nap shorty as he was reaching his arms so I could get down, I gave up , just let him carry me , I felt my eyes shutting so I closed them , feel asleep like a true homey !
Lil Nate Shotti (Shorty) 

Nathan`s Diary

I put my black fitted on and threw the hood from my baggy black sweater over my head and zipped up the sweater and stuffed my Iphone and welt in the pockets .

Well after my performances ! I went on tour earlier and so am I wrapping it up here in New York !

I am in Madison Squares Garden !

Me and my crew said a little prayer like we always do before every performances.

I am hooked up to my mic pack and homey g turn it on for me and we went under stage , rapped and sang and dance .
We got back to Detroit , headed up to Detroit City where the last performance of Survivor Brain Washed Tour !

As always we prayed ! I used to be the type of kid that would always think the sky was falling . Why am I so differently wired am I a martian? What kind of twisted experiment am I involved in ? Cause I don`t belong in this world!
Then I rapped
Brain Washed !

Why I am so brain washed ?!

I am so brain washed , mama made me brain washed so brain washed I let myself get brain washed by my mom !

I crowd surfed which by the way I love to do to in every concerts I

Then the last two
raps are deep !

this twisted twisted war I am in between myself is too weird and twisted why someone tell me why I am in this twisted war twisted war ! Twisted twisted war !

Yeah am I tough but I cry homies cry we are humans and have feeling I see the tear drops hitting the ground . The world can be harsh and cord but yeah I do cry and I fake smile !
I see all of my fans crying and rapping along !

Yes I shed a few tears real boys cry ! Uncle Em and my crew hugged me

Me and my crew sighed autographs and took some more pictures with our loving fans !

My best friends through out the tour were by my side like always .

Nathan`s Diary

I put the clothes that I fold earlier in my bookbag and I also made sure my notebooks were inside and pens too ! Yup there are in there . I slipped my black and red beats over my head and letting them neatly rest on my shoulders and I stuffed the changer of my headphones and my Iphone .

 I put on the black fitted I borrowed from my brother Em yup dad`s friend and my big brother have the same name awesome I know right! 

 I pulled the hood of the sweater I wearing over my head and I has my sunglasses on ! 

 Alright I looked at myself in the mirror and said to myself this is it I am going on a trip and no one can`t stop me from going .

I left the room and went downstairs and left Em a note with a smiley face


:) saying going out peace out homie yo !

from: shottie

I left it on the light brown desk in his home office and left .


I am not turning back I am going to New York City !

I  went to Aaron`s house to pick up Jordan he`s at Aaron`s house playing with Diamond !

I hooked the lash`s to his collar and headed to the airport !

And I said to Aaron the pilot who flys the many private planes dad and me have !

I left a voicemail to Em .

We landed in New York !

And I got a call back from Em saying to wait for him that`s he`s coming to get me and take me and Jordan back to Detroit !

But why ?! I asked him and he said because I am taking care of you !

I hung up and put my Iphone in my pocket and thanked Aaron for fling me and JOrdan over here .

I did a little bit of shopping and picked up dinner for me and Jordan stake and fries ! Oh and of course water for Jordan I packed his other water bowl it`s blue with diamonds he loves bling bling just like me !


Oh boy Em`s here we stayed In New York for the night I told him I wanted to stay because it`s vacation for me as fro my dad and brothers and uncle are on a cruise !

Em and me sayed for a couple of days and headed back !


I know you miss them you know they will be back you know !
 and you have your best friends Jordan and Tony !

Oh yeah ok !


I hugged him !

I wrote a poem about my dog (Jordan)

Jordan is fluffy and his fur keeps me warm when I lay my head on him

and does many tricks and he looks like a white fluffy pillow when he needs a hair cut !

 He loves it when I put clothes on him when his hair is short !

weeks and weeks passed  by !

 dad and the gang returned !

I brushed my teeth and said my goodnight prayers with dad , said waited for my brother Em and his wife Kim  they were saying they prayers so I went to Michael`s room and he was done praying so I hugged him and said goodnight and ran back to where Kim and Em are staying said goodnight to them ! They are spending the night !

I went back to dad`s room and climbed into bed and said goodnight to him and he said goodnight baby boy !

The last thing I saw before falling asleep was dad !

Nathan's Diary

Dad is a little bit sleepy so he just sat on the couch and he looks like he is about to dose off ! He said  its a good time to take a nap isn't it shorty ? ! I smiled at him and dad was just staring at me !  Next thing I know dad was knocked out I just looked at uncle M I said well since dad is napping let's go to the mall and he said I could use any of his credit cards for anything I wanted ! OK ! Know u ?! Uncle M loves to say u know just like dad does . I went over to the other side of the living room to get dad's wallet and of course his sweater which is next to him I covered him up with the blanket that's on the couch and took his hat and black air Jordans off . I put them on since I can borrow anything from him dad said ! Me and uncle M got to the mall we went to sneakers heaven I looked around and pointed to the sneakers that I wanted to Mr. Shawn so he can get them in my size ! I turned around to face uncle M and only to find dad next to him I said daddy you came ! I hugged him yay dadi ! 
Mr. Shawn  came back with the sneakers I wanted I paid for them with dad's golden card ! I bought a couple of shirts and shorts and jeans !

We ate pizza and Chinese and Japanese food and we also signed a couple of pictures for our fans !

I brushed my teeth and said my prayers . And I went to bed and uncle M and dad are knocked out we all actually said our prayers together !

Uh um they are on my California king sized bed aye we are family !

Nathan's Diary

I had a great day with my family and now I m off to bed . I prayed and brushed my
teeth and climbed into bed my dad came in and tucked me in and said goodnight and shut the lights off . My eyes started closing and then I felt something lick my hand it is Jordan I let him climb in my bed every night so he was telling me that he was there by licking my hand . He jumped on the bed and Jordan is asleep, I am wide awake, so I went to the other side of my room , turned on the desk lamp suddenly new rap lyrics started flooding my mind so I grabbed one of my lyrics notebook , before I knew it it was fillled with new lyrics and I grabbed my older lyrics notebook from way back when I started my career, wow I am successful, man I am proud of myself, I wrote so my rap songs , created movies with that I started feeling sleepy so I shut off the light , headed to bed , fallen asleep.

NATHAN`S DAIRY

THE CLOUDS ARE BLACK IN THE SKY . IT STARTED THUNDERING VERY BADLY AND LIGHTING TOO ! RIGHT AWAY I GATHERED MY STUFF AND PUT THEM IN A BASKET THAT WAS ON THE FLOOR AND I CALLED AFTER MY WHITE STANDARD POODLE JORDAN TO COME AND HE CAME AND WE BOTH WENT TO GO IN THE HOUSE MOM AND DAD WHERE THERE WAITING FOR ME AND JORDAN TO GET IN THE HOUSE AS DAD WAS CLOSING THE DOOR IT STARTED POURING AND DAD LOCKED THE DOOR AND PULLED THE BRIGHT RED DRAPES TOGETHER AND ME AND ME AND JORDAN THE REST OF THE FAMILY ALL SAT TOGETHER ON THE SOFA AND THE LIGHTS WENT AWAY SO I CUDDLE UP WITH JORDAN BECAUSE I WAS KINDA IF SCARED IF THE CRAZY THUNDERSTORM THAT WAS GOING ON BUT THEN AGAIN I DON`T NEED TO ME SCARED BECAUSE I HAVE GOD WITH AND MY FAMILY TOO ! SO I FORGOT ABOUT WHAT WAS GOING ON OUT OUT . AND MOM GIVE ME JORDAN`S RED HAIRBRUSH SO I CAN BRUSH HIS HAIR AND HIS RED BANDANNA SO I CAN PUT IT ON HIM . HE SAT CALMLY BUT A LITTLE SHAKY WHILING I WAS BRUSHING HIS VERY SOFT FUR AND THEN I SAT THE HAIR BRUSH DOWN AND TIED THE BANDANNA ON HIS HEAD . AND THAT MADE HIM SLEEPY SO HE LIED DOWN ON THE FLOOR AND CLOSED HIS EYES AND WENT TO SLEEP AND SO I TOO LIED ON THE FLOOR NEXT TO JORDAN WENT TO SLEEP TOO . THE WEATHER HERE IN RUSSIA CAN GET A LITTLE BIT CRAZY !
LIL NATE SHOTTI

NATHAN`S DAIRY

I M HAVING SO MUCH FUN ! I GOT TO GO TO MANY INTERVIEWS WITH I.T IS SO MUCH FUN WHEN THEY ASK MANY QUESTIONS TO HIM AND THEY WHEN INTERVIEW ME TOO  ! I WENT BACK TO RUSSIA I LOVE GOING THERE I LOVE SEEING ALL THE DIFFERENT PLACES THERE AND THE FOOD IS GREAT AND I GIT TO LEARN EVEN MO ABOUT MY FAMILY YO ! AND MY GANGSTAS AND HOMIES ARE TEACHING ME ABOUT ALL DA DIFFERENT PARTS AND FOODS IN RUSSIA ! I LOVE RUSSIA AND I LOVE PLAYING WITH THE RUSSIAN DOLLS MY FAMILY HAS FROM MANY MANY YEARS ! MY MOMMA AND DADDY SAYS I FIT PERFECTLY IN RUSSIA BECAUSE OF MY SHORT YELLOW BLONDE AND BABY BLUE/ HAZEL EYES I GOT MY LOOKS FROM DAD`S AND MOM`S SIDE OF THE FAMILY ! LIFE IS SO GOOD HOMEY I M SO HAPPY I GIT TO LIVE ANOTHER DAY ! :) LIL NATE SHOTTI 

Nathan's Diary

My Homeys and gangstas means so much .  They like my family its always fun to hang out with them . They are always there 4 me when I them the most  . Lil Nate Shotti

Nathan`s Diary

love my family with my hold heart.
My love is Joy to love my family
Family is sad and happy and love.
Family is fun and painful and pretty.
My family is like all families we have
love and we have happiness and tears
I love my hold family
My family is like angels who fly in sky
I am grateful that I have family that loves
me.
My family are kind and nice and fun to be
around
My family is painful like all familys are and
heart breaking and Evil sometimes
My family is heart breaking and deadly like
everyone else
Hey I can't stop loving my family not matter what
it coats in the family.
Way my family is just makes me want have family
with someone be as good as they are.
But God know I love my family
and our love is great to have in life
and even know they leave he world they still
a live in my hearts. LIL NATE SHOTTI

Poem

Life is rough sometimes but keep on going and hold your head up head . oh life why are u so harsh most of the time  keep the people who support u n keep the ones who don't outta of your life .

Nathan`s Diary

I m so happy I m going to Russia and then to the Dominican R.E.P and Puerto Rico and ireland to visit to learn about where my family came from . And study the arts and I m going to school in these places where I m going and it awesome and my whole family is coming with me <3 and my two baushkas and two grandpas are gonna teach me how to properly dance the Russian dance . I love my background and I m gona learn more about my background and where each of my family member from the 1445 to now how awesome I m so happy.

Lil Nate shotti

Nathan`s Diary

like toy soldiers 

step by step heart to heart 

we all fall down 

bit by bit they tore us apart 

we never win but

the battle wages 4 toy soldiers

I m supposed 2 the soldier who never blows his composure

even though I hold the weight of the whole world on my shoulders

I ain`t supposed 2 show it 2 my crew I m supposed 2 set an example

Lil Nate Shotti